Why Do Doctors Kill Themselves?

I still remember exactly where I was when suicide first touched my life.  Questions now haunt me that I feel compelled to help fix:  Do doctors commit suicide? Why do doctors kill themselves? How many doctors commit suicide each year?

When suicide first profoundly impacted my second year of residency fast asleep.  It was 2 am two days before Christmas when I received the call from my mom.  I can’t explain why, but I knew immediately.

It had been a normal day at first.

My aunt, a perioperative nurse who was more like a sister to me than an aunt, had asked my uncle to buy her some creamer since they were running low that morning.  She went to church that day, taught a Sunday school class, and went missing thereafter.

My family, including my wife and two kids, were supposed to come stay with her during that Christmas holiday just a few days later so that my aunt and my extended family could meet my newborn son.

We knew it was going to likely be my grandfather’s last Christmas.  We did not know it would also be my Aunt’s last Christmas, or in fact that she had already had her last Christmas the year prior.

The Details Come Out

As the details came out, I started to realize that I had been in the dark for a long time about the struggles my aunt experienced on a daily basis.

She had previous bouts of depression and, apparently, serious battles with prescription drug abuse.

On the day that she ended her life, she went to her job where everyone was off for the day (it was a Sunday).  She found some midazolam and fentanyl.  She got high, walked around the empty hospital, and then decided to commit suicide in her office with the very drugs I use to take care of people every day by administering herself a general anesthetic dose of propofol and succinylcholine (a paralytic medication).

To say that losing my aunt in this way devastated my family and me would be an unacceptable understatement.

Not many days have passed where I haven’t wondered what would have happened if I had called or texted her and told her I loved her? What would have happened if I asked how she was doing more often?  Would things be different if she had told me she struggled with these things?  What if I hadn’t been too busy to show that I cared?

Physician Suicide

Two years later, I received news that a woman I worked with in Student Government while in medical school also committed suicide.

She was in anesthesia residency, just like me at the time.

This hit close to home, too, particularly after experiencing my Aunt’s death.

 I began wondering what I could do to help prevent this pain for those I am around on a daily basis?

Do Doctors Commit Suicide?

In a recent study (July 2017) published in Academic Medicine, suicide was the leading cause of death among male resident physicians and the second leading cause of death among all residents.  This was only led by malignant processes.

In fact, in that same time span (2000-2014) 66 residents abruptly ended their life.  Rates for depression in resident physicians range from 21% to 43% with one study finding that 21% of interns experienced suicidal ideation. The fact is that this has always been a serious issue.

Unfortunately, this is not an issue that is experienced in residency alone as the rates of depression and suicide in practicing physicians occurs at a more frequent rate than in the general population.

How many doctors commit suicide each year?

It is estimated that every year 400 physicians take their own lives

Some believe the increased rate of suicide in attending physicians is attributed to the fact that, while physicians struggle with all of the same mental illnesses as other people, because of their presumed success in the eyes of others they may have a harder time asking for help.  

Mental illness affects us all.  We either struggle with it personally or have family, friends, or loved ones that do. It is important that this topic not go on ignored or undisclosed.

Why Do Doctors Kill Themselves?

Do you remember the first time you had a family member get diagnosed with a terminal illness, such as breast cancer?  Maybe heart failure from an MI (heart attack)?  What was your immediate reaction to that person?

I know what mine was: Sympathy.

Who wouldn’t feel bad for them?  I wanted them to get better. To heal. Most of all, I wanted them to feel loved.  Unfortunately, that reaction is not universal to all medical disorders.

We, as a society, often fail to remember that the brain is an organ just like the heart, lungs, or kidneys.  Like those other vital organs, the brain can also become diseased.  Mental illness is, in fact, a disease.  One that can be treated.

However, it has to first be diagnosed, not judged.

Why do doctors kill themselves?  Often because they don’t want to be seen as weak and needing help.  Others because of stigma. In fact, one study showed:

Only 1/3 of medical students experiencing burnout seek help often because of self and public stigma associated with seeking help.

So, how to do we help those that are afraid to help themselves? Most importantly, we have to be aware of those around us.

Have you noticed your co-resident or co-student feeling down?  Do they look burned out? Have they lost interest? Started drinking too much?  Maybe they look tired all the time or overwhelmed?  Easily jaded?

Some of the above are clues to a potential depression diagnosis.  The first step in helping is asking the person, “Are you all right?  It seems like something may be wrong?”

I’ve never known anyone to get mad at this question.  In fact, they usually appreciate it because it means you are paying attention and that you care.

There is Hope!

If you or someone you know is experiencing burnout, depression, or suicidal ideation please seek help!  One of the most important aspects of this is that people realize that you are NOT alone in dealing with their struggles.  There are people who care and want to help.  Help that will not affect your career trajectory or cause disciplinary action.

One of the most helpful resources for medical students and residents experiencing depression can be found at the AFSP (American Foundation for Suicide Prevention). They also have a helpful video (below) that really does shed light on the issue.  Take the three minutes to watch it.

Additionally, some medical schools (Some examples: Saint Louis, UC San Diego HEAR program) have also started to develop curriculum specifically focused on the mental health, well being, and wellness of their residents.

Why do doctors kill themselves? Be a part of the solution.

Be present with those that surround you.  Check in on them.  Ask tough questions like, “Why do doctors kill themselves?”  Then aim to learn more and be a part of the solution.

If you are struggling, please ask for help.  The weak thing to do isn’t asking, it is avoiding getting the help.  Your life is more important than anything else.  There are many people who want to help you.

Do you or a loved one struggle with depression or burnout?  Has suicide directly affected your life? Are you paying attention to those around you?  


6 thoughts on “Why Do Doctors Kill Themselves?

  1. Thanks for posting this, there is such a stigma with mental health, especially in the high end of professional ranks. Remember how Tony Soprano was worried he would be knocked off if anyone found out.

    My wife’s profession (Veterinarian) is even worse than physicians for suicide rates, they’re programmed to take care of unresolvable patients that way. Professionals can need help too

    • Thanks for commenting! It is a conversation we as a community have to take part in.

      That surprised me about veternarians! And absolutely agree that professionals need help, too. It’s important that we encourage others to seek help and to make sure they know it’s okay to do so!

  2. Thanks for this column.
    I have been educating physicians and the public about physician suicide for several decades, starting with my Medscape article (http://bit.ly/MDSuicide) which is frequently updated with everything I’ve learned and is intended for everyone. I maintain a website http://www.Black-Bile.com dedicated to further openness and learning.

    On Sept 12, 2018, during Suicide awareness month, I will be presenting a free CME webinar sponsored by NorCal on the topic of prevention. Everyone is welcome, registration is required at http://bit.ly/MDSuicidePrevention.

    Also, Sept 17 has been designated as National Physician Suicide Awareness Day. Everyone needs to get involved to help to end this deadly epidemic.

  3. I have heard about the high suicidal rate among physicians. You would think that with such a lucrative career. It wouldn’t happen. I am about halfway through updating the story I wrote about my brother.

    • Yeah, it goes to show that money doesn’t matter as much as you’d think.

      The things that I have seen happen with my own eyes are beyond disturbing. It’s easy to see how that’ll have a downstream effect someday if I don’t keep the right perspective and seek help if/when I need it.

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