The Fear of Spending Money

The day should have been filled with joy.  In the same weekend, our offer on the house we wanted to buy was accepted, my favorite NFL team kicked an NFL record-tying field goal as time was expiring to win the game , and my 33rd birthday was being celebrated! However, joy is not what I felt.  What I felt was anxiety stemming from the fear of spending money.

Is this normal?

Buying the next house

For six years, my wife and I have spent many evenings looking through houses on the market.   It’s been one of our biggest drivers to get to a better financial situation – and to getting our oldest Little Philosopher out of her school.

We started looking this month, the point at which we said we would (down to $50,000 in student loan debt).  Naturally, we found a house that was perfect almost immediately. Part of me was ecstatic.  But my frugal nature that’s been formed over the past two years was in a pure state of fear.

What are we about to do? This could be a huge mistake!

This led me to the realization that I have found a new cause for fear that I didn’t know I had… the fear of spending money.

The Fear of Spending Money

Looking at the math it is quite obvious that the two main drivers of early financial success are living well below your paycheck and then using the difference to build wealth.

My wife and I have paid off $150,000 over the last 15 months while we have ballooned our investment accounts to over $115,000. We have done this by living on ~20% of our gross income. The rest was put towards destroying debt and investing in our retirement accounts.

In my first Journey to Wealth Manifesto, I said, “I will live like a resident (not buy a house) until I have paid off my student loans.

However, we still have $50,000 in refinanced student loans remaining.  Am I a hypocrite?

After all, I run a website that teaches people not to inflate their lifestyles in order to get to financial independence!

What have I done?

A Reality Check

It’s important to write down our goals.  Otherwise, it makes it pretty tough to achieve them.  Ultimately, it’s hard to know where you are going if you don’t know the destination.

However, life is constantly in flux.  That doesn’t change our goals, though!  We wrote them down for a reason.

So, what were my other goals that I posted a year ago in My Journey to Wealth Manifesto?  (And have I achieved them?)

  • $100,000 in assets by July 1st, 2018 (Done)
  • Positive Net Worth by July 1st, 2019 (Done… six months early)
  • Out of Student Loan Debt by July 1st, 2019 (on track… more below)
  • Millionaire by age 40 (on track)

When I looked at our list and all of the things we were accomplishing, I realized that we might be able to buy the house a little early if we came across the right one.  Otherwise, the plan was to keep trekking along til the loans were gone.

Thus, my goal changed a few months back to start looking for the next house when we got our student loans down to $50,000. This number was chosen because  we have $30,000 in equity in our house.

Given the money from our home sale, I realized that even if we bought the next house early, I’d still pay off my debt at least two months before our original deadline.

Essentially, we would be able to buy the house at this point AND reach our financial goals at the same time.

Intentional Changes

There are a couple of reasons to share our decision to buy a house.

First, I want this site to be transparent in tracking our progress towards our goals.  Showing others that we can balance the joys of living now with our goals of reaching financial independence is important.

We are all human. Therefore, we all err.  It is important to show others that financial mistakes – when they occur – do not necessarily mean our entire financial plan is derailed.

Second, our decision is a real life example of the balance I preach.  We are buying the house we’ve wanted for six years a little earlier than anticipated.  We are also still achieving our financial goals at the same time!

While we made a decision to buy the house before our loans were officially paid off, we didn’t do that in the face of failing to reach our goals.  We sat down, did the math, and realized we could buy the house and still be student loan debt free in two years.

Take Home

After learning the art of frugality, it is easy to have the fear of spending money.  But sometimes, this fear is unnecessary.

It’s important to strike a balance between the goals we set and the lives we live in flux.  If you can meet your financial goals and a change is within those parameters, there is nothing wrong with making a change.

That does not give permission to change goals simply to spend more money.  That message will never change on this site.

So, take your time. Write your manifesto and your personal investor’s statement. Then, set your mind to achieving those goals.  But, don’t forget to be flexible along the way.

Do you struggle with spending money now that you’ve learned about frugality?
Do you have the fear of spending money? Leave a comment below.

TPP

 

 

19 thoughts on “The Fear of Spending Money

  1. Congratulations on pretty much hitting or exceeding your written goals.

    After getting accustomed to saving for so long it does feel strange to loosen the purse strings and spend on something. For me it was buying my Tesla a couple of years ago. It felt a little sad to see about a 10% drop in net worth at that time but in the end I have no regrets (at some point you have to spend the money you have been stockpiling or you will never enjoy it and someone who never really worked for it will)

    The fact that you are Adaptable in your plans makes it even more likely to succeed. You could have been strict and wait to buy a house based on your original timeline but you may have missed out on the house you were meant to have.

    • Thanks, xrayvsn! I try not to be too strict, and have never been the best rule follower really. I am more of a “spirit of the law” kind of guy. So, breaking away from the rules normally is a natural thing for me… but when it came to spending money after being frugal for the last couple of years, it was different for some reason.

      Thanks for the encouragement! P.S. What kind of Tesla? I’m a car guy 🙂

  2. I bought it new in Dec 2015. It’s the model S 90d (the only model above it was the performance version which was fun to drive and decreased 0-60 time from the 4.2 sec my car has to 3.5 I believe (now it is even lower). Taking a test drive in that car was like going down the first hill of a Rollercoaster but I couldn’t justify the extra money (as well as higher insurance cost) for essentially a parlor trick I would seldom use.

    I got the autopilot version 1 hardware which is pretty incredible and makes my daily commute great but really shines on long road trips. It works really well but you still have to pay attention but more as a casual observer which is less taxing on you.

    I actually have a doctors bag post already made on it that I need to put on the schedule going in to way more detail

  3. This is a normal fear. We also had such qualms—but despite our past money mistakes, it’s all still ended up okay in the end. Thanks for being transparent about what’s going on in your head. 🙂

  4. I struggle with this too, from big purchases like a house down to smaller ones like replacing my 5 year old phone that is so cracked beyond belief that I could barely read your post today 😅

    I keep having to remind myself that money is a tool, and in order for a tool to work, you need to use it when it’s appropriate. Otherwise it’s just clutter taking up space to make us feel better about ourselves.

  5. Finding a bit of frugality and connecting the time = money equation seems to amplify loss aversion. And to spend hundreds of thousands…oy, I’m not looking forward to parsing those conflicting emotions.

    A lot of us feel like after Finding FI that we have to steamroll towards it by cutting down on all our expenses. But this is a fast track to madness.

    We’re really do work hard and it is ok to enjoy the journey to FI. Like your say, balance is key.

    Congrats and good luck with the move!

    • It’s definitely been a challenge. I think its the right move for us, honestly (no pun intended). We will still reach our goals, but man its challenging to spend this kind of money when we’ve been going 90 mph towards FI. I’ll have to settle for 70mph, but that’s fine,too.

  6. “Fear is a reaction; courage is a decision.”
    — Sir Winston Churchill

    I like this quote from the great leader of Britain because it’s very true.

    Fear is a normal human emotion and reaction. It’s a defense mechanism that helps protect us from potential harm. And I think the fear of spending money is a healthy one as long as it doesn’t overtake you and control your life.

    In your case, I believe the act of buying your house really entails your courage to spend money. You’ve ran the numbers. It makes financial sense. It’s the dream house that your family has always wanted. And you had the courage to make a wise decision.

    Like you mentioned, balance is key… and to quote one of your other posts…”You Don’t Have To Wait To Live The Good Life”.

    The fear of loss is powerful. While your grandfather was in war-torn France, the fear of losing his life was real and constant. I can’t imagine the kind of fear he went through. He had tremendous courage.

    While not at all on the same level… the fear of losing money is real too. But along with this loss, there will be a gain. You will gaining a dream house that will bring happiness and fulfillment for your family– something money can’t buy. It’s an intentional decision of courage. Congratulations on buying a new house!

    Btw, thanks for linking to my article. I really appreciate it!

  7. Interesting reaction, TPP. Mine was a bit different: I was super stressed up until we found and bought our place, because LA is absurdly HCOL and I didn’t have a sense of the upper limits of damage I’d be on the hook for until that moment.

    This was when the kids were young, my wife was not working and I felt it all on my shoulders.

    Once the debt was defined, I was able to sleep much better knowing the precise amount we’d have to pay off.

    Hopefully you’ll take some solace in the finite aspect of knowing the number you’ll need to overcome.

    A house is a consumption item, but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t enjoy it if you choose the path of home ownership.

    And as Wealthy Doc noted, you are far ahead of most crusty veterans when we were your age.

    Enjoy your saving and debt reduction victories, and may you have many years of good memories in your new home.

    CD

    • Thanks, CD! Truth be told, I did have some of that same feeling, too. We had a price range in mind and landed squarely in the middle to low middle end of that range, which was great.

      Fortunately, we live in a very low COL location. So that’s a huge advantage for us. I am pretty sure geoarbitraging from here would be next to impossible.

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